This sounds terrible, and I still wonder how it happend. I felt like a robot, like I couldn't control what I was doing at the time. Let me start off by saying that i'm gay. I have been in an amazing wonderful relationship of almost 3 years with the best guy ever.
We went up north this past memorial day and my teenage cousin (boy), was there. We ended up sleeping in the same room for whatever reason. I was feeling h**** and the conversation turned to s**. He then told me to "come get" his d***. Somehow this excited me, and I proceeded to give him oral s** which turned into a*** s**. He came inside me and went to bed. I felt used and sick and felt like I cheated on my boyfriend. Now here I sit with the guilt.
I know it sounds horrible, I didn't mean for it to happen and if I go back I would change it. But I can't. I've asked God for forgiveness, and feel like my boyfriend doesn't need to know, because it will only hurt him. I vow to never do anything like this again, with anyone!!!