Recently I was talking to an adult man and this happened.....

I(14F) talk to random people online quite often. I like chatting with others, and have developed this habit because I used to be really lonely as a child. A couple of weeks ago, I met someone (23M), and we started quite frequently. I spent 4-5 hrs average talking to him per day. He never said anything remotely inappropriate or sexually suggestive, and I honestly considered him as my friend. But of course, I had to develop a minor crush on him, although I had no intention of telling him whatsoever. I knew that it was wrong and I should be liking people my own age, but I couldn't help it. It was fine until we were talking and he asked me what type of guys I liked. I gave him a really vague description, and he ended up telling me that he liked me more than a friend and that if I was uncomfy we could still carry on as if nothing happened. He kind of got me into admitting that I kind of liked him too, and from then on we just talked A LOT. Nothing bad has ever gone between us, and all our convos were appropriate. He would sometimes make kind of suggestive jokes but I didn't mind. He even helped me develop a plan on how to evade my strict parents. We had this whole schedule of when to talk and stuff and then our convo somehow turned to marriage and he downright asked me if I wanted to marry him when I came of age. I was so shocked and I didn't know what to say. I ended up saying maybe. But then randomely my friends and I were talking about age of consent and stuff ( we just had ** ed), and I finally realized that I could get him into loads of trouble and how what we talked about could be used against him or something. It was super illegal and wrong, and I was scared that my parents would disown me and I would be disinherited and he would get into legal trouble. So at that moment, I blocked him and even deleted my account. I didn't say goodbye. I didn't give him an explanation. I just left like that. Two weeks later, I still feel like a terrible person. Even though I think I did it for both of our sanities and futures, but I think I'm a selfish person. If I had really cared about him then I would've not thought about my parents disowning me.

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