I have no intentions to stop starving myself

I know it's bad, that I'm killing myself. I know why I'm light headed and get headaches. I worry that I'm probably causing brain damage. I know why my body hurts, why I have to abuse caffeine just to function during the day. That anything that is lost will be gained back when I start eating normally. But I have no intentions of eating like that again. After years of counting calories, working out 5-7 days a week, maintianing a calorie deficit, restricting my diet away from soda, fast food, refined carbs and anything else bad for you to no avail I have finally started loosing weight. And for the first time in a very long time I can actually look at myself in a mirror without getting sick to my stomach. But I start to wonder, is this me trying to be thin, or maybe it's me finally going through with killing myself.

Jul 8, 2010

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  • Basement dwellers love to harass overweight females out of "concern for their health", but they never quite seem to go after dumb chicks like you who are like "idc if im starving myself n hurting my brain im just trying 2 b thin lol". Oh well, at least when you're abusing your body that way, fertility goes down to pretty much zero. So you won't be bringing another idiot into this world, if you're even still alive at this point :)

  • LOL to the above 2 posters, they do have a point.

  • Too bad their "points" have disappeared by now...

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