Sometimes I'm so confused with friendships I've made. The majority of my friends use me as the 'back up' last resort friend. I keep giving and giving until there is nothing left to give. This year I finally found someone who has expressed that I'm their best friend, and the feeling is mutual. I don't know if it's the healthiest friendship though. She's into partying, which I am not' but at the same time is a complete intellect and the most amazing person I have ever met. Sometimes I wonder if I'm blinded by admiration for her and can't see her for who she really is. That being said, I don't know if the way I feel for her eclipses over to a crush on her. I've known for a while that I'm a bisexual, but with her I cannot tell if it's just feelings of great admiration or wanting a romantic involvement with her. Either way, she is straight.