My Bender... needs help

I am in my early 20's and started hanging out with my neighbors regularly in April. We did the drink until the sun came up and have long meaningful conversations about our trials and tribulations in life. We had an amazing camping trip where we tripped on shrooms and I know for me it was a life changing. Eventually in a drunken stupor we made out and would have had s** if not for a perfectly timed interruption by a roommate. So time goes on and we remain friends, of course the stupid girl I am start having feelings at this point.
He is totally not into it, we still hang out and I went away to home, the night I got back in town we went to the bars and got hammered. Went back to his pad and he fell asleep on the couch and I blew lines of oxy. To sleep. He woke up went to bed, called out to see if I had any smokes and we shared a cig sat on his bed. He was black out at this point, and had drank and taken a massive amount of painkillers.
We sat on his bed and he told me I could sleep up there tonight, we had slept next to each other before and so why not. Then he grabbed me by the hair pulled me to the floor and said "can I keep you" we then fooled around and he got me off.
The next morning was travesty. We were awkward and didn't say much until we started to drink that weekend when he tried to tell me that he was incapacitated like I was in a stable state. We're still friends and last weekend he told me he didn't blame me. Today I told him what happened and what he said to me. He apologized for being a j*** and that was that. I don't know how to be around him. That night was a big wake up call and I just don't know what to do or how to be. I am in my early 20's and started hanging out with my neighbors regularly in April. We did the drink until the sun came up and have long meaningful conversations about our trials and tribulations in life. We had an amazing camping trip where we tripped on shrooms and I know for me it was a life changing. Eventually in a drunken stuper we made out and would have had s** if not for a perfectly timed interuption by a roommate. So time goes on and we remain friends, of course the stupid girl I am start-having feelings at this point.
He is totally not into it, we still hang out and I went away to home, the night I got back in town we went to the bars and got hammered. Went back to his pad and he fell asleep on the couch and I blew lines of oxy. to sleep. He woke up went to bed, called out to see if I had any smokes and we shared a cig sat on his bed. He was black out at this point, and had drank and taken a massive amount of painkillers.
We sat on his bed and he told me I could sleep up there tonight, we had slept next to each other before and so why not. Then he grabbed me by the hair pulled me to the floor and said "can I keep you" we then fooled around and he got me off.
The next morning was travesty. We were awkward and didn't say much until we started to drink that weekend when he tried to tell me that he was incapacitated like I was in a stable state. We're still friends and last weekend he told me he didn't blame me. Today I told him what happened and what he said to me. He apologized for being a j*** and that was that. I don't know how to be around him. That night was a big wake up call and I just don't know what to do or how to be.

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  • you may be stupid, and you are also wrong!

  • "the stupid girl I am"

  • what makes you think I am a lady?

  • I don't need help, lady! Kiss my shiny metal ass!

    -Bender

  • Get a life, stay off drugs and booze and move back with your mother, you need her!

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