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A problem.
I'm pregnant. Just found out today, though I've been sure for a while. Probably four or five weeks along now.
It's my ex-boyfriends. He left me recently to be with his baby's momma (he has an eight-month old son).
In the past four or five weeks, I've had alcohol numerous times, smoked cigarettes consistantly, smoked a decent amount of bud, and blown a lot of coke. I know this is all bad for the baby- but I'm secretly hoping I'm going to have a miscarriage. I'm not going to stop smoking and I'm not going to stop doing drugs. I can't afford an abortion, but I can't have this baby either. I'm eighteen and starting school tomorrow. I really just can't.
I'm sure I'm a bad person. But I'd be an even worse mother. I'm in no position to have a baby- I can barely take care of myself. In addition, my ex and I hate each other.
I don't know. I can't tell anyone and I don't know what to do. Cocaine, cigarettes and alcohol all increase chances of miscarriages early on in pregnancy...so I'm hoping all three will be a sure-fire way of getting rid of this.
I'm going to **, I'm pretty sure.
goodness. well i just think you should know that Jesus loves you. and you may not want to hear this, but you may not kill the baby. you may just cause it to have serious mental problems when it is born. i really would just like you to know that you shouldn't do those things. there is always giving the baby up for adoption. drugs and alcohol aren't going to make your situation any better. you know you could end up killing yourself with all 3 of those things. if you're worried about school so much, then why are you doing drugs and alcohol. that surely won't fix the problem at all.
You do realise you might not kill the baby, just cause it to have a mental disability, or physical deformity? And you'd have to care for it, knowing it was all your fault?
how can you afford all of those drugs but not an abortion?
there are plenty of clinics where you can ether get free or low cost abortions, why not put in the effort to look for one of those instead of destroying your body with drugs?