When you're nice to me

it scares me because I never know when the other shoe is going to drop. I hate feeling like this. You've been so mean and for you to be nice shouldn't make me feel like you're up to something or you've done something and you're just being nice as a distraction. My stomach almost clenches because of the plunge that comes from you being sweet to you being mean. I'm scared for when the next time comes. And I don't want to be like this.