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In middle school i sold my body and soul
I dont know if this breaks TOS since i am a minor, buttttttt, here goes.
im a minor, just started high school, i had been selling my body to people since middle school, it wasnt even for the money, i loved the praise, as a male, i dont complimented often and i was addicted. but after a while the knowledge that the love was fake caught up to me and made me realize how alone i really was. but home life wasn't too good either, so its basically all that i have. (plus being a closeted transfemme in a transphobic family, dressing how i do for these "special occasions" is the only sense of euphoria i can get) people who didnt know what i did always ask me how the popular kids know me, i cant tell them i was with them and their boyfriends at the same time, so i laugh it off. i found a boy there,(transmasc) goes by ASH (i go by SKY) and i am madly in love with him, he fell into the same trap of fake praise that i did but im afraid to ask him out, because of what we do, and because while all my other friends are fake, either so they become more popular or so they can get free time, he is my only honest friend, and i dont want to lose him, he is like looking in a mirror. this is a problem because their was a time where i refused help from a girl with a "i can fix her" mentality, but i was so lost in delusion i turned her away. what if that happens with ASH? what if he's so addicted to being the life of the party? with free drugs and drinks like i was? as of writing this there is alot going on in my life, but me and ASH are retired since 2 months ago and are besties, he always invites me to things and i never leave his side if i dont have to, but my life is very stressing right now with a bunch of legal ** and heavy depression (close to the level i had when i first started) and am thinking about going back, just for a night, maybe get $100, and dip, ASH cares about me heavy, and if he does love me back this might break his heart, but i dont know if he does. (good "partying" time songs are: MARINA, deco27, stellar, and ken ashcorp, with that being said, dont EVER ** do anything i'd do, or i will find you)
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