Obsessing About the Past
My wife and I have been married for three years. We work for the same company, and initially met while working on a project together about four years ago. She is very caring, loving, and our s** life is fantastic. She is highly orgasmic, and I love making love to her. I also truly believe that she has been faithful to me the whole time we have been together. Well, until last week everything was great.
While enjoying a bottle of wine and watching a situation comedy, the topic on the television turned to having threesomes. I nonchalantly asked my wife if she had ever partaken in one. She replied, “You really want to know?” I said yes. Well, she proceeded to state that she indeed had been in one before, about a year before we started seeing each other. Ok, I thought, no problem, because it was before we were together. I could also deal with the fact that the threesome in question was a MMF scenario, with her pleasing two guys. She also admitted that the experience was lovely and hot, although she stated that she would never do it again.
Now here is the problem: one of the guys with whom she had the threesome is not only one of my current co-workers, but is the guy who sits in the cube next to me. F******-A. It couldn’t be some anonymous dude from some anonymous place, but rather the guy who f****** works next to me. Now every time I see him, I have visions of him f****** my wife doggy, blowing his creamy load into her p**** (all while she is in the throes of a howling o*****), while his buddy is on the other end jerking out a load on my wife’s face. I can’t get this image out of my head. I know it is wrong to hold this matter against my wife (it was before we were together, after all), but it is getting damn hard to go to work and concentrate on anything else, when I work next to the man who has experienced working over my wife in a raunchy threeway. I feel “retroactively cuckolded,” although I know that is irrational. Does anyone have any ideas on how to stop obsessing about this and move beyond this issue?