I love the new me

I discovered recently that I’m VERY attracted to men. I’m a guy who liked females for most of my life. One day though something clicked I was drinking not drunk just drinking with a friend who happens to be bisexual. He asked if I had ever thought about being with a guy. I answered honestly no. Another drink in he’s pretending to be a palm reader and has my hand in his I noticed I was becoming very aroused so much so that he could see me getting hard through my shorts. He put his hand on my very hard **. Looks straight in my eyes and began rubbing and stroking me. It felt so good ( I wasn’t sure why) I didn’t even try to resist instead I pulled my shorts down for better access. He moved closer to me and we began making out, he’s smoking a cigarette the entire time which was honestly kind of hot. As my ** draws near he stops and lights another cigarette puts it in my mouth (at the time I had only tried smoking once or twice) but I comply and when I did he tells me that he’s the only top here I’m on the bottom bunk. I wasn’t sure what he meant by that. So as I try to uphold the illusion of smoking this cigarette. In mid drag I soon found out what my friend meant. He pulled his pants down and said “get to sucking **”. I could’ve easily denounced this and left. But within 2 seconds my mouth was wrapped around his **. As I’m going up and down trying to find a rhythm he tells me to keep smoking m. Confused, I dragged hard and exhaled on his ** and went back down for more. He seemed to love that. Around 15 minutes later after sucking his ** and tonguing his ** He pulls out of my mouth hands me a pack of cigarettes and a lighter and tells me to follow him. I was so ** then and there I would’ve done anything… and I did… I follow him to his bedroom I guess for a little more comfort. He tells me to light a cigarette.. I don’t know why I continue to do this because I have never enjoyed smoking before but right now I’m loving it. Once my new cig is lit he undressed me he spun me around my back facing him my front facing his bed where the cigarettes, lighter, and ashtray were. He gently forced down onto the bed while I’m trying to balance and not burn anything. So I just let my cigarette dangle from my lips at that point he reaches around and puts a quick coat of lipstick on my lips which was odd at the time but I was so ** so I complied and put the now spent cig out. He tells me to light another.. like **.. But I did he began kissing the back of my neck when I felt his ** on my bare **. I took a deep drag not knowing how this was going to go. After lubing up he slowly entered me and with every gentle push from us both he sank deeper in my **. By now he didn’t have to tell me I was bold enough to grab a cigarette and light it up myself and it felt ** great! Right as the lighter goes out I take a deep drag smoke immediately escaped out of my lips from what I soon learned was a double pump inhale… Who would have thought right? He starts picking up his pace and then starts my moaning of approval. He’s the first guy I ever told “** me baby! Gawd yes ** me harder, I moaned that over and over again. As my cigarette gets shorter I took one last drag and stubbed it out. It drove me wild seeing the lipstick stains on the filter.Not long after he insists I light up another cigarette. My voice is scratchy from smoking so much when I never really had before. After 1 whole hour of that I’m loving everything about this. I decide then and there ** is definitely for me m He asked me where I wanted it I told him my ** or mouth didn’t matter so he came up in my **. It felt great. After it was over we cuddled until I not him but me. Until I grabbed the pack of cigarettes and lit one. I asked him if he wanted me to light him one too he said no but loved how ** I looked with a cigarette between my lips or fingers. I just shrugged and thought “fine more for me “. As I’m exhaling smoke from my mouth and nose he says something that I was not expecting but I love what he said. He said I’m the hottest chick he’d ever seen smoke. I blushed not really knowing how to feel. I just gave him a Smokey kiss and continued to smoke while In deep thought. Was I a girl? Did I want to be? Was I his girlfriend now and he my boyfriend? I really liked the sound of it there and then. He told me I could shower and gave me fresh towels but since my clothes were a mess I’d have to wear what ever he gave me. He gave me miniskirt, tank top, and a bra… knowing how much I enjoyed what just happened and if I wanted it to go further I’d have to wear these clothes so after showering I did just that. I then proceeded to see the lipstick he’d given me sitting in an open drawer in his bathroom. Inside the rest of the drawer was mascara, foundation, lipstick, eye liner, eye shadow, concealer lip gloss with other things as well. After getting dressed I decided to see what I’d look like dolled up as a ** blonde female. After applying everything as good as I could it being my first time he came to tell me dinner was finished. I told him to wait right there I’d be right out. I put on my new pink flip flops and saw the pack of cigarettes laying on the bathroom counter. I grabbed the pack and lit up and immediately felt great and **. Maybe smoking was for me after all. I opened the door with my freshly lit cigarette between my freshly painted lips. He just smiled and said “I was hoping for this”., we embraced he just held me in his arms and I never felt so loved or wanted before… I took a drag and we kissed. I made the suggestion that we go out tonight for dinner. I could tell he liked the idea. So while he got ready I was smoking and rubbing my ** and my ** through my bra. He came out 30 minutes later as we approached my car I realized it had been over 30 minutes since my last cigarette. I made a choice to just smoke in my car. For the first time ever lol. As I’m driving and smoking I can tell he’s stealing glances in between drags and dangling my cigarette between my red full lips. Before getting to the restaurant I stop at a gas station realizing that I will need more cigarettes not knowing the name of them I just held up the pack and asked for 3 packs. Turns out they’re Marlboro menthol black 100s. I got back to the car and he says asked me if I was a real smoker now.? I just smirked and lit up and took a cheek hollowing drag and said “yup, my new boyfriend likes to watch his girlfriend smoke” with that I continue to drive and smoke while we hold hands… it was kinda adorbs 🥰.

We decided after 11 months of dating to get engaged we were outside last night he watched me light up and said “baby I can’t believe you’ve been smoking for 11 months” I told him it was like there wasn’t a time where I didn’t smoke. I truly love to smoke now I do. I have settled into a pack and a half day smoker. I have received two gender reassignment surgeries top and bottom. I’m still healing right now so no real ** at this moment… I can still give him the best Smokey ** though. I have one more surgery to go technically 2 more but one is a minor procedure while the other will give me my feminine voice. Soon we’re going to talk about children because he wants to be a father and I want to be a mother. This is the new me and I love it!! Being a girl is so much fun! I’m going to start doing a few smoking fetish videos if anyone wants to see totally free. If so email me at simba0491@gmail.com