AITA

AITA for sleeping with a work buddies wife after he committed suicide? I know it sounds ** up saying it but I don’t know if it makes me an ** or not. So for the story we’ll call her Alexis 19F and her boyfriend (my old work buddies) Alexander 19M and myself 33M. So I’ve worked with Alexander since right after he turned 18. Actually I hired him and told him I’d give him a shot at our company even though he has no prior experience but he’s going to have to pay attention and work hard. Over the next few months from his start the kid worked extra hard. He’d show up 10 minutes late here and there but was always available to help whenever we needed a hand. He ended up helping out so much I was beginning to rely on the 18 year old more that I could on my 30 year old guys. So after 6 months I started to personally take him under my wing at work. The kid worked hard no question about that. Well he turned 19 and not much change, not that I was expecting any. The only notable change is I’d let him come over to my house or I’d go over to his house sometimes and we’d hang out. And that I never did with employees and/or coworkers.the reason I never ever did this with any of my “employees” was became I didn’t want people thinking I was playing favorites. Alexander was different. He was mature for his age. He also lost both his mom and dad by 16 years old and didn’t really have any close bonds with his family still living aka his siblings... so anyway for 3/4 of the year still nothing has changed. Occasionally he’d come into work and I could tell something was up and he’d say it was something between him and his girlfriend. Her and I almost never talked or interacted. She was doing her own thing or not there whenever I was at his house and she only came over to my house 2 or 3 times. So right before Alexander was about to turn 20 I hadn’t heard from him all weekend and didn’t think anything of it. That day I had a meeting with a client and wouldn’t be able to go over the morning plan/meeting until an hour or so later than usual that Monday morning. I meet with the client and step away and notice Alexander hasn’t responded back yet. I thought that this was weird but he probably stayed up late playing video games and I was going to have to go wake him up. No big deal he’s been putting in the hours as he always would anytime he was needed. I’m about to get in my truck and drive to his house to wake him up and I get a call on the business number (not my business cell which is unusual) it’s Alexis and she sounds upset. I ask what’s going on and she proceeds to tell me that last night they got in an argument and Alexander shot himself in the head and he’s gone. I couldn’t believe it at first. I tell her I’ll call her back and proceed to process what I was just told. Well a week or so later she messaged me asking if I’d want to meet and go through his things with her as I was like his best buddy and mentor and she knew he’d want me to help. I go over and help how I can and she tells me that they are having a celebration of life for him and she’d like me to go. She also asked me if I’d move his motorcycle to a new location as I’m the only person he know that can and will move it for her. She also asks if I’d give her one last ride on it and of course I agree. The celebration for him goes well and the ride on his motorcycle was nice as well. Up until now no this has came up that was “different” from our new normal. At home later that night she text me telling me that she had tickets to a concert out of town that was originally for them to go and get away and have fun and that if I’d like to go with her she’d like that but if not she understood and wold probably just sell them. I didn’t know what to say so came up with a lame excuse and said I would love to but I’d have to work because things at work were a bit crazier especially now without my right hand man. So another week passes and i was on one of my apps and noticed she was on the app as well and I only knew that because her name was the same as her others on the app (mine wasn’t) so I message her messing with her and she almost immediately shuts it down and i say something that only someone that she actually knew would know and follow up with I think she’s a very pretty girl and has an amazing personality and that I’ll leave her alone now but hope that I was able to make her smile and I’ll disappear no weirdo stuff. Well she’s adamant about wanting to know who I am and asks if she guesses would I truthfully say if she was correct. So I think this will be fun so I agree. She thinks and guesses and doesn’t get it and she can’t think of who tf I could be. So I tell her can’t she just take a compliment from a anonymous associate of hers and smile and go about her day. She doesn’t go for that and insists on me revealing myself so just before I go into a meeting I give in and reveal myself and go into an hour meeting not able to message her. An hour later I check and see that she was flattered and would have never guessed it was me, but she was “kind of glad it was”. Surprised I continued to converse with her and that continues for another 1-2 days then I make a sexual remark and she says she wishes. I laugh and say “oh yeah well then let’s do tonight then” she says she’d love to but had plans with her family. But then she tells me she’s free tomorrow. I say if she’s serious then consider it a date. She laughed and agreed tomorrow it is. Well tomorrow comes and she confirms we’re still on and we’d meet at 4:00pm. Well I rented an air bnb and she gets there 10 minutes before I get there. I pull up and go in and she’s lounging on the bed exhausted she says from her long day and two hour car ride. I lay next to her on the bed and we start to chat. Nothing deep or really meaningful in our conversation and after 10 min of conversing I sit up and say well let me do this as I kick off my boots and loosen my belt. I then get back on the bed and start to pull her shorts down and she’s nervous you can tell but adjusts herself as I’m peeling her ** and shorts off to assist in their removal. I throw them on the floor and immediately start eating her **. Her thighs keep squeezing my head in her satisfaction. After 10 minutes of my tongue in her ** and massaging her ** I take my pants off and pick her up to adjust her position so I can penetrate her with my throbbing **. Everything is going honestly better than I thought as I slide my ** in her wet saliva soaked ** and immediately start pounding her ** like I’m a teenager all over again. After 2 or 3 minutes I pull out and tell her to hold tight and I shuffle to my bag in the adjacent room to get a condom as I was just ** her raw. I slide the condom on hop back in the bed and mount her again and go to town. We roll and flip and are both drenched in sweat. Almost one hour later i start going in hard and finish inside her with the condom on. Exhausted we lay naked next to one another just chatting and she says she’s going to fall asleep 5 minutes of our post ** conversation. I say oh yeah we’ll see about that and get up and adjust her again and slide my ** in her for a second round. She moans and submits and I proceeded to ** her ** this time. I ** her ** for another 15 minutes then I pull out and ** on her ** and lower back. I’m exhausted as I’m 33 and just ** a 19 year old for the last 1 1/4 hours! I tell her I’m going to smoke a cigarette and she joins and we talk for another 45 minutes or so as I smoke a blunt and two cigarettes. I then tell her she’s welcome to the Airbnb for the night if she wants but I’ve got to go. I’ve got to stop by the store for my wife on the way home and thank her for the amazing **. Then later that night she says she had fun and she was going to have to take a bath and rest her ** because her pelvis hurt from so much repetitive thrusts. Ngl it took until the next day but my pelvis was bruised to and was sore for two days after. Well I message her that afternoon and no reply. the next day after work she sends a short response and says shes exhausted and going to bed. then from there same thing kept happening and slowly our conversations became less and less until we just stopped talking all together. so AITA for piping her down or am i in fair play?