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My mama ** me and i let him do it
My mother has a cousin but he is more like a real brother to her as they were raised together. he is just 7 years elder than me. idk why but i never felt that uncle niece relationship with him. it was always more like a crush on him for me, even before i knew what crush is. then 3 years ago i realised my feelings are developing into something else and i felt it wrong so to stop it all i maintained my distance and stopped seeing hi whenever i went at my mother's house but recently i went there for a month long vacation. we used to enjoy a lot, watch movies,play games and everything and one night while watching a movie i slept with him on his bed. in my sleep i realised something heavy on me and when i opened my eyes he was laying on me and idk i liked it and let him sleep on me. it became a routine for me now to sleep on his bed with him and day by day he would make progress with touching me sometime putting his hand inside me top and touching me there and finally one day he slipped his ** inside me thinking i was sleeping but i wasn't and i did not stop him because i really liked it and i have a bf since 1.5 years i can't tell him this. i tried breaking up with my bf after it but he didn't leave me because he loves me way too much. i am more into my uncle now than my bf and would always think of my uncle whenever i imagine something but there is a guilt of cheating my bf. what should i do i don't want to cheat my bf but i am getting something i've always thought of
Dec 6
Picture the long term and where you see yourself in the future. What is best for you? What makes you feel safe, provided for and fulfilled emotionally/physically? Do you want a home in the future? Marriage? Children? Who can give you all of these things?
Then try to answer those questions from your partners point of view; does your uncle want to grow old with you by his side or does he see you as "forbidden fruit"? Your boyfriend is devoted to you, but WHEN you confess that you have betrayed his trust, will he have the self respect to move on, or will he have the forgiveness to give you a chance to prove there was meaning behind your guilt?
Try a test.
Lie to your uncle that you're ready to take your relationship to the next level, that you've broken up with your boyfriend (if he knows about him) and that you plan to tell your mother about everything that night.
Guage his response to this carefully. Does he want to keep the two of you a secret or is he ready to make it official?
After you tell this lie, reveal that you made no plans, again, carefully memorize how he responds. Is he relieved? Dissapointed? Angry?
For your boyfriends test, get his attention when you're on your phone then you're just reading "some confession story you found while scrolling" which happens to be your anonymous post.
Again, guage how he reacts to how a person treats their partner that way. Is he fine with it or angry?
Add a note at the end of the post asking "If you were him what would you do?"
Look at how he reacts and listen to what he says - they can be different things.
At the end of your boyfriends test you have to tell him what you've been doing. It's cruel to drag him on a line like this, you need to make your decision.
If you truly can't chose then chose neither. You always come first before any guy.
Best of luck.
The more the merrier, enjoy them both. Maybe even take on a third!