Won't get hard

I tied off my testicles about a week ago really tight with a small wire. Last night I decided that a little fun by myself sounded good so on went the clips on my ** and my 10 inch ** on a setting that was not just constant on was I'm ** and I was remembering a ** from two weeks ago and normally that gets me hard and makes me ** when I have my ** doing his thing in me but nothing this girl was left without ** that I would catch in.my hand and lick my hand clean of the **. I don't waste **. But nothing maybe I broke my ** I called the VA and asked if they do castrations they are supposed to call me back k to let me know I hope they say yes and will see me soon I hate having ** girls don't have ** so I should not have ** that would make me very happy and free of testosterone poisoning. I dream about the day they are cut off me I will be the happiest I have ever been.