2 Different Worlds
So,this confession is going to sound like a typical story of "mother daughter rivalry" -but,that's not all it is...Ever since i was a little kid-me and my mom have been arguing...about everything-we cant come to any common ground on anything we talk about-she never listens to what i have to say (and please dont tell me that she does and i just think that she doesn't) like seriously-a minute later,she'll bring up/say something that i just told her about a couple of minutes ago...like i didn't say anything at all-she even talks over me like im not talking...just-totally tunes me out.ive thought about it,and its not I think that she just that she has a memory problem-i think she just-doesn't like listening to people because she thinks she's always right.i understand that parents today have a lot going on and a lot to worry about-it's just-she is always trying to control my life-and she makes me feel like im never ever good enough..a good example is that-well,im in college now-and math has always been hard for me. i told her the other day that i got an 85% on my test(i was SOOO proud of myself and couldn't stop smiling) and,well-when i told her that,she's like "i thought you got an A?" even though-i never said anything like that...she's always makes me feel that what im doing-just isn't good enough..and that makes me feel not good enough and depressed. I have a huge eating disorder because i am constantly worrying and stressing about if i am good enough for anyone and at anything..and sometimes-honestly i feel like just giving up. More than a couple of times,my mom has made me want to kill myself.im not suicidal-and haven't attempted it before-but she makes me feel so bad that i dont even want to live on this earth anymore..there is no changing her. i have now been on this earth for 20 years,hoping that maybe one day-me and my mom could even be...friends. but i dont think that day will ever come.