ANGRY AT MYSELF
I'm a married guy, 32 y.o. and my wife is 28, blonde and very shapely and pretty.
We had some guys over last Monday night to watch football.
My wife served food and of course, drinks.
There were 6 guys over, 4 of whom I knew from work and 2 of their friends whom I hadn't met.
Well, as might be expected, it got pretty rowdy toward the end of the evening, with most of the guys getting pretty drunk.
All the guys left after the game, except for one guy I work with and his friend, who I don't know.
Now this guy was a really big, muscular guy and I could see he was a mean drunk.
I was just hoping he would leave before he got mad at somebody and started a fight.
Anyway, my friend was passed out on the couch and I was close to doing the same. My wife was pretty drunk as well.
I sat down in my recliner chair and started to doze.
I woke up in a haze to see my wife and this guy I don't know, the mean drunk were talking over by the T.V.
As I watched, he grabs her by the elbow and starts pushing her toward the bedroom door.
She was drunk, and it looked like she was trying to resist and pull away, but he just kept on pushing and holding on to her arm and as I watched through my drunken haze, he had closed the door behind them.
I was going to jump up and do something, but then I got to thinking that I was really pretty drunk, this guy could kick my ass or worse, because HE'S pretty drunk and I didn't want to wind up in the hospital emergency room.
Well, I did nothing. I sat there for a moment and I tried to ignore the noises coming from the room, then the "haze" closed in and I drifted to sleep.
When I woke up a few hours later, I was alone. My friend and his big, drunk buddy were gone.
I got up and went into the bedroom.
My wife was on the bed, naked and passed out, her clothes thrown all around the room.
There was a small smudge of blood between her legs on the bed sheet.
When I was able to wake her up, she told me he had forced himself on her and raped her twice.
She said when he finished, he just got up, dressed and left.
I know that if I'd done something when I wanted to, none of this would have happened. But instead, I thought of my personal safety and pretty much gave him my wife for his pleasure.
I'm too ashamed to go to the police.
Right now, the way I figure it, what's done is done. She's on the pill, so there's no danger of pregnancy. She kind of feels the same and doesn't want any trouble either.
We're going to chalk it up to experience.