So many times I have wished I could talk with you but these days it seems to not be possible. I watch you heading down a path of great difficultly. A path that is not your own but that of a world in which you want to be seen … to be special and unique and pleasing to someone else.
Silenced in January of 2010 , I was disrobed as a father figure entirely and cast aside. Now I can only watch you take your next step .. and watch as you head into most certain turmoil.
Despite my deep love for you as one of my children, I must confess that I have overwhelming contempt for your demeanor. In great part you are doing nothing more than being a teenager but in a small way you have been ill-supported to walk in the wrong direction making your ego-centric behavior exaggerated past the point of comical to painful.
The good news is that much of your unattractive and hurtful behavior is easily correctable. The bad news is that some of the choices you are being allowed to make will not be so easily corrected; not getting the proper education is a case in point. If your music does not lead you to a full time devotion and career, you will be left in the cold and even worse, find yourself in my position of trying to create a career from scratch at an older age.
In any event, I hope that you will see yourself as others do before marching to much further in your so-far short life. You are a very good soul whose behavior and company I have come to detest.
I love you and miss you and will try to always be there for you as I have,
One of your fathers.