I just felt sad. I did something wrong in my work, which may influnce my future promotion. What is worse, I lost my interesting in pursueing this position. Am I too fragile? So easy to be beat down. I am afraid so.But may not.
I forced myself to pursue this positon because I am afraid that easy work may waste my time and lost my fighting will. I have been always in a blue mood. I loved someone.I hate him now and I want him die.The idea is aweful. I want to keep me out of it . I am trying so hard.
Nothing interests me anymore now. I am so sad., sad and sad.