I'm a bad person

I was divorced about 10 years ago, and for the next few months I was really depressed. I did some really stupid things, but one I'm still ashamed of was one night when I went to an adult theater. I sat down to watch the movie and soon after, this guy came down and sat next to me. I zipped up my pants real quick because I thought he was the manager. It felt weird him sitting next to me, and as I was about to leave, he pulled it out of his pants and started playing with it. I don't know why, but it turned me on for some reason. I'm not gay. But like I said, I was really depressed and did some stupid things. I watched the movie, and watched him out of the corner of my eye. He put his arm down, and straightned up in his chair. I sat there for a minute and for whatever reason, I reached over and started playing with it, while I played with mine. It felt weird and good at the same time. I was doing it with my left hand, and I'm right handed, so I shifted over a little bit so I could use my right hand . This meant I had to lean over a little bit, and when I did, he put his arm around my shoulder and started to push a little bit. I ignored him and soon he had his hand on the back of my head and was pushing. I resisted, and almost stopped playing with his thing when I thought "Why not. I feel worthless anyway" so I went down on him. I watched the movie out of the corner of my eye, and imagined I was a woman. He kept pushing down on my head and I went down further and further. I'd never done this before in my life. After about five minutes, I found myself wanting to do it so I started sucking harder and going down further. Then he exploded down my throat and it didn't taste that bad. He got up and left with out saying a word. I've never done anything with a guy since, but I think about it sometimes and feel really bad. I don't think I'm gay. I sure hope not.

Jul 8, 2010

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  • Get tested dude

  • As long as you didn't get an STD, then don't feel too bad about it. Stuff happens. I'm sure it didn't make you feel any better though, so I wouldn't suggest doing it again. I hope you've pulled out of depression since then. *hugs*

  • been there done that some of the best bjs ive had were in adult theaters from guys... sometimes just like to watch...

  • Hope you didn't get an STD from your new "lover".

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