I'm in love with someone I never met in person. He told me he loved me a few months ago. Don't know if I should trust him though. If he's being honest though, I feel the total same way about him =\. He doesn't know it though & I'd like to keep it that way. Vulnerability to getting shut down/heart broken is not cool. I'm too young for that bullshit... I've been speaking to him for about a year & we are soon going to meet. From the moment I knew he was coming to my state for school, I've planned at least 15 outfits to meet him in, ten million hair styles, and like 3456789 ways I could meet up w. him.... He's the first & last thought I have everyday........ It's actually really annoying =\.
Oh, did I forget to mention I have a boyfriend? Yeah ... about that.. We just made a year =\. Reason why I'm still with him? Well because I have feelings for him. And either way, I'm not going to break up w. him for someone I've NEVER met. That's nonsense. Who the f*** does that?
Back to "him" ..... He's different. We connect., point blank. I can't ignore the feelings what so ever. I recently made the stupid decision to not talk to him until around the time he comes over here. He got mad. I don't know what to do at all. I'm freaking out. Is my mind playing tricks on me? WTF!........
I guess only time will tell =\.