We had a brief pregnancy scare, I said I wasn't pregnant but I lied. I'm sure I was.
I aborted it myself because I was too scared to admit it, too scared I would be a awful mother and end up like my parents, too scared a child would ruin your life.
I am smothered in guilt and regret it since that, and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I wish I could tell you, but I know it would hurt you, and I love you too much to inflict this on you...
Please forgive me.