I'm going through a lot in my life right now. Court custody cases are never ending. Its sad. I am so stressed out, but I never let it show. I am so strong on the outside, but on the inside I feel so fraile and weak. I am doing everything right by my kids and yet, I still have to go to court to answer to every little motion that they file. I am a young mother. I am doing my best. This is the hardest thing in my life. I wish I had someone to talk to. I guess this is why I should have waited to get married until I had kids. Each child was the promise of a future and my own family, but then the men took off. I don't understand.
I have a great man in my life now. He is sweet and good to the kids and he endures a lot from me. Maybe more than he should. I should be the happiest girl in the world. I am winning my custody case, so far, I have a great fiancee' and we are moving into our first new home, next week. Im scared to death.
Do you ever feel like things are just waiting to fall apart? Maybe its postpartum?
It would help if I had someone to talk to. Someone to listen and understand, but I am tired of bothering my fiancee' with it..it seems like thats all I talk to him about these days. All my old friends, I have out grown them. The ones I still have..I don't want to bother with this drama. I just need a real friend.
But I trust almost no one. With all the court, it makes me not trust anyone.
I am glad I found an anonymus site to be able to blog and get this out, because I can't blog or talk to anyone and somehow this helped me. Thanks site.