I Miss You
It's been well over a year now and I still miss you terribly as I did way back when. You will never know how much you truly mean you me. I just wish we got together at a better time. I'm sorry that I was a complete b**** to you at times...I never told you, but while we were together, I was undergoing treatment for clinical depression from previous suicide attempts. I'm sorry I never told you about this! I didn't want you to think that I was crazy because leaving me was the last thing that I would want you to do. I didn't take any medication during the treatments, because when I was with you, I felt so indescribably happy. As generic as that sounds, you made me feel like I had a purpose and that someone truly did care for me. I know I didn't express my joy much, but inside I was bursting with butterflies.
When you left me, you destroyed me. It was much worse than the pain that I went through before we got together. I don't care though, I love you and I still do, no matter what I say or tell people, I still love you.