I will always love you
Every time I see a picture of the two of you, or a facebook status about one of you visiting the other, my heart breaks a little more. I still can't believe just how quickly you fell in love with someone else. Did you cheat when we were together?
I'm not sure if I believe that you ever really loved me. How could you move on so quickly if you did? I'm still stuck here, waiting for you. I shouldn't be and I'm fully aware of that. We are over. For good. It's so difficult for me to come to terms with that. Its been months. You are still the last thing I think of before I fall asleep and the first thing I think about when I wake up. I'm tired of being heartbroken. I just want to move on, but am I capable of that?
I'm leaving for New Zealand tomorrow. I hope I find someone there, but I don't want to fall in love with someone else just to spite you. I'm not this woman. I'm not fickle and bitter, but I snap so easily now. You changed me, even though I swore i wouldn't let you. I hate that. I wish I could tell you that. Instead I'll just smile and nod my head and know that you are happy with her. I'm sorry that I can't let you go. I'm sorry that I can't be the person I was. i'm sorry that i will always love you.