My girlfriend's abusers
Before we got together she had told me she'd been sexually abused in her past. I looked passed it..
after quickly falling head over heals in love with eachother.. she reveals that she's been regularly sexually abused since she was a child, by her father. This turned into tying her down and paying multiple men to have s** with her while he records it. the last time it happened was a month before i first met her. she's 21 but cannot resist because he threatens her that they will harm her family. she's a real fighter and is trying to overcome her fears by letting touch places than haunt her (like behind the ears etc). The b****** just got diagnosed with brain cancer a week after the last time this happened and has asked for forgiveness. I wish he dies really slowly.
I also feel so bad for her and so horrible at the fact that while single, i've fantasised about g******** and bondage.. I feel so horrible about this.
I needed to get this out and tell "someone" but it's so f***** up i can't bare to tell anyone.