I lied about my sisters abuse
I watched my dad sexually abuse my older sister my entire childhood and when people came asking about it, I told them I knew nothing about it and I thought she was lying because she was mean to me. I liked watching/hearing her get abused whenever my mom was out. She was a cruel b**** and I hated her guts. I saw her completely naked with him in every room of the house, doing everything I’ve seen in p***. When the social workers and police came and asked me about stuff, I made us sound like leave it to Beever, If he had a crazy older sister that was always making s*** up. I said that knowing he would be in her room punishing her the second these people left, but she was honestly the most abusive person towards me that I have ever known, and I fantasize what it would be like to have a girl in my basement that I used and abused daily. That makes me a sick pervert, but I would never do that. Not even to an angry horrible piece of s*** like my sister. I just remember she had the perfect body and the look on her face while he was slamming inside her.... I dunno what that makes me, but it turned me on a lot. She came after me for lying to the police and all I said was I’m not gonna help anyone who’s hurting me, and I ran away from her. I remember we’d all be going to the bus stop and he would tell her she wasn’t going today and how she cried. I dunno what he did to her, but I’m sure it was horrible and I should never have helped him either. I was just a kid. And I’m as messed up as anyone I guess.