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I was so stupid
I posted this originally as an answer to someone's confession, but I decided to re-post it again as my own confession, because it may be helpful for some women who are tempted to do stupid things.
I am married since 1986 with the same husband, and I was faithful for 22 years. Two years ago I started going to lunch with a co-worker, new graduate from college, so young that he could have been my son. I never thought we would cross the line, but it still happened. I trused him for almost six months, during which time he told me a lot of times how much he loved me, and how age is just a number. Needless to say that I slept with him more than once. In my (then) stupid mind I was feeling like a teenager again. Then, one time, while being at his place, a friend of his "stopped by" and "my trusted friend and lover" started to tell me how much his friend liked me, and how exciting it would be to make love to both of them. I wanted to die and I would have left on the spot if they let me. But they insisted, and I gave up and didn't resist anymore, just for being able to leave and get home to take a shower before my husband got back from work. I never talked to him again, and 4 months later I found another job. It was the worst experience of my life, and if my husband found out about this he would probably kill me and himself, too. I'm telling you this because someone on the blog said "bad things happen to bad people", which I do not agree with. I am a very good and caring person, and still, I made a mistake for which I paid dearly.
"Fact is that what I thought to be a wonderful affair became something else,"
That answers any question I had. I know its scary to be alone, but if you would have stayed in a wonderful affair you should really consider divorce. You aren't happy, thats obvious, and you could still leave on good terms, you should leave before you get too bitter.
You are making a mistake. I love my husband with all my heart, and he loves me, I know that. I am very happy with him. I just did a stupid thing, because that young man made me feel really young, like I was in college again. It was something that I didn't feel for many years. I paid for that already, and I know it's not going to happen again! I truly don't know if I can make myself understood...