Please Don't Hurt Me.
We were best friends, inseparable, never apart, one night, we hung out, I messed with your scruffy hair, and teased you about your muscles... As we drove home, listening to Taylor Swift and held hands, I thought oh my he really does like me. We went for a walk around the lake, I was under your arms, where I belong. You and I are cuddling, it's cold and you wrap my inside your jacket as we watch the stars, we both look up just as a shooting star flies above us. We both make a wish. I tell you I want to get married. You jokingly get down on one knee and propose to me. I run my fingers through your hair and tell you I would marry you in a heartbeat. You slowly come up, and kiss me softly on my left cheek. It's 11, I have to go home, you offer to walk me, I tell you I'll be fine, and we part. Days pass we talked about everything until the sun comes up. Then suddenly, you call me one night and tell me you are going to find me, the perfect guy. I start to cry. and cry. and cry. secretly of-course. Why would you say these things, when you know my heart belongs to you. You tell me you're going to Saudi for 42 days, & that you won't be here for valentines day. I do not make a big deal about it, but I'm hurting inside. You tell me again, about how I deserve an amazing guy. My heart starts to silently shatter, crumble, drop. Was I wrong, was this all a lie? Nothing makes sense anymore. Our texts get colder and colder. More distant as the day goes by. You ask me, if I don't want a better guy then, what do I want. I pause, I don't know how to reply. Inside I'm screaming All I want is you. All I need is you. Please don't hurt me.