Sometimes, I wish I wasn't.

I don't want to live anymore...My life is falling apart and I can't hold it together. I am only 19. But I have no hope in the future. I have to stay alive for my sister. I have to protect her from my dad. He isn't a bad person...just has anger problems. Breaks her things. And hit her once...

I have to protect her...and I know she would be so sad without me.

But I can't stop thinking about swallowing those pills or jumping off that bridge. I can't stop thinking about that one second that can end a life of pain...I don't want to go on...there is just no point.

My skin is maimed with a hundred scars...none of them freed me. I want to go home. But I don't have one. I want cry to my mother, but she will just tell me to grow up. I want to tell my father, but he will get angry. I want friends who understand, but they just think I am crazy.


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  • can i adopted you or..? you're freaking brave for posting that and just all around amazing. i know you don't know me but i want you to live. there is only a few people as brave as you as amazing as you. don't die don't do anything you can't take back. keep your head up. <3

  • I am sorry for all of your pain I might even be able to relate a little bit when I was growing up my father was abusive and an acholic and I used to cut and burn anything to make the pain outside ease up I lost my brother to suicide 2 years ago and it was the worst thing I have been through I can tell you really care about your sister and it sounds Like she really needs You and I bet she does maybe you can talk to her I dont know how old she is but Please dont hurt your sister like that it sounds like you 2 already have enough pain in your life and trust me it will hurt her very very bad and that is a pain no sibling should have I hope things get better for you im sure they will eventually just please remember your sister needs you I have felt the pain of loosing my brother to suicide and I dont want you sister to have to fill that pain to

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