I think I'm in love with a guy who would never be interested in me as more than a good acquaintance. Everyone wants to be his friend or be with him, I'm just addition to the list.
But I keep my hopes up because I can imagine that one day we will be together. That I'm special or something.
But my best friend has adored him for forever.
I told her that I liked him once. She now claims that she has changed her mind about him, that she doesn't like him anymore. And that it has nothing to do with me. (I say I don't like him either).
I've just made it unnecessarily painful.
And I will never again tell her that I still think of him that way.
And I really just want her to be happy first.
And I'm a terrible person for even considering what it would be like to date him when I know how she feels.
Which makes me love him more.
Makes me appreciate her more.
And like myself less.