Loosing trust on my girl
I am in love with this gal, I am in so much in love that I practically cannot live without her. We have been involved in s** as well for last 4 years. Though our s** life has detoriated a lot due to her lack of interest in s**. Still I love her because I think that s** is not every thing for good companionship.
Few months before I was feeling uncomfortable, as our common friend the boy visited at her place in the morning. And at 4 pm I was feeling miserable, and thought some thing may happen between both of them and I went there. I knocked the door two to three times and the door was opened by the boy. I went inside to see my gal lying on bed and taking heavy breathing, though she was dressed.
I asked her later what was going on. She initially said nothing. But after my continuous asking she said that she was just drowned in emotion, and was attracted to have s** with him, though she did not. She said that if I was late by an hour, s** thing could have happen.
Since than I lost the trust, I love her too much, but feel that she may do it again some day. I do not know if I should go with this gal and marry her. She said that it was her biggest mistake and it will never be repeated.
Please friends suggest me what to do, I am very upset on this for last couple of months.