I have cheated on every man I've ever
I have cheated on every man I've ever dated. Sometimes I cheated on them with several different guys. There was a time I was sleeping with 4, maybe 5 different guys. I've always felt a huge amount of guilt about it, but it never stopped me.
I've been married for a year and a half now. I love my husband and am more committed to him than anyone I dated in the past. I haven't cheated on him. Yet. I think about it all the time and have come very close on a couple occasions. I really hope I can stop myself, but I just don't know.
Every time I fight with my husband I think about getting a lawyer and fighting like crazy to get everything we own, including taking the house we've both worked for.
I feel like a horrible person.
My s** life is terrible. My husband hardly ever wants to have s** and when he does it only last for a minute or two. He hates foreplay and has given me only 1 o***** ever. I watch p*** all the time when he's not around.
But at the same time I love him like crazy. I'm a f****** mess.