I have so many things wrong with me that I don't want to see a therapist or tell anyone for fear that they will know how messed up I am...
Try not to be afraid of talking with a professional. They have heard all kinds of crazy things. I am sure you are not the only really messed up person out there. Just give them a try i'm sure they would be happy to help:)
How messed up are you?
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