Heart, Body, Soul

When I was 11, a man ** me but it was not a very violent encounter. I know it sounds awful, but I so desperately wish it was a violent one so I wouldn't feel so ** guilty and ashamed. So I could feel like it wasn't my fault and try to move on. God knows I've tried.

I feel such disgust because I know who he is. I cannot tell my family because his wife is someone who I care dearly for. She is like a second mother to me and I cannot bear to hurt her, so I have to stand him. I've been contemplating suicide for the last few years. I haven't completely gone through it because of my mother but lately not even she's noticed and I do not think I can take much more.

The worst part is my relationships are suffering. My friends don't understand the pain I'm going through and the only one who could is going through her own problems. I've been unable to hold a real relationship for very long. I'm at the end of the rope and I do not think I will last much longer.

He took everything from me and dirtied my soul. My fear of men has kept me from making a real connection with any on a sexual or even emotional level. I don't know what to do anymore.

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  • You know him so cut his f ucking c ock off and shove it up in his throat, shove a nice big ** up his ar se see how he enjoys it

  • WOW, not a single TROLL, AMAZING!!!

  • Honey ; stay strong the ** wasn't your fault , & I think you need to talk to someone about this & maybe they can help , just some advice ; I hope everything goes okay girl ; keep your head up .

  • why should you suffer due to other's mistake? please just forget about it....move on. i know it is difficult but if you keep on remembering it, u cannot be happy. the best thing is that you share it with others so that you can feel lighter.

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