Cant get over what i have done
I cheated on my girlfriend about a year ago. We had been going out for about a 6 months at the time. I kissed a girl while on a business trip (nothing more happened), and then when i was on a holiday with some of my mates i slept with a girl i met on a night out. When i got home from the holiday i told her everything, she was really mad (obviously) but we both wanted the relationship to continue. Like i said that was over a year ago and everything is fine in our relationship now. I dont know why i did what i did, i think that i just have a very hard time turning women down. Whenever a girl hits on me it gives me a huge confidence boost and i find it difficult to stop.
So, we are both very happy now and she wants me to marry her! We are also trying for a baby. What happened never gets mentioned and i love her very much. The problem is that i still feel very guilty. The more and more serious the relationship gets the more guilty i feel about what i did. Its affecting my whole life. I have started to develop a stutter and my confidence is very low, i'm normally a outgoing kinda guy and i have a job that requires me to do a lot of public speaking but i just cant get what i did out of my head. I have always thought of myself as a good person but my actions go against that. Its really eating away at me and i dont know how to make it stop.
Thanks for reading this.