I want to die.

I want to die.

More than anything. I feel worthless and a complete b**** to everyone I meet.

I have a boyfriend. His name is Marvin. I love him. He's been there for me, and I think he's the only one there for me anymore. He's absolutely amazing but he can't be there for me all the time, and I understand. Honestly, the moment he's not talking to me, I feel completely empty.
I've lost my two best friends because I'm a complete b****.
My family is so f***** up.
We don't even live together.
My mother drinks every night and tells me I'm f***** up for how I feel and yells at me for the silliest of things. No one believes me because she's so nice when she's sober.
I love my father but he works so much and I hardly ever get to see him.
I'm done fighting to please everyone.

I want to end my life because I think everyone would be so much better without me.
I know they would.
I want to take pills and sleep.
I just want to die and leave everyone so they can continue living there lives.

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  • Try seeing a counselour. Things will be much better if you do. And, think about it, life is a beautiful thing. God put you in this world because he knew that if anything happened with you or your family, you would be strong enough to handle the pain. And please, don't kill yourself. When you do, h*** will be more miserable then you think.

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