Narcissist

I'm 17. Until recently, I was slightly overweight. Occasionally I would get told I was pretty, but I never felt it. I always felt fat. And consequently, unattractive, and gross.

Then I lost about 30 lbs. In fact, I'm still losing weight. And I look...a lot different.

I'm getting compliments all the time. And a lot of male attention. Much more than I'm used to. I'm fitting into clothes that look amazing on me.

For the first time in a long time, I feel beautiful and sexy.

Looking into mirrors used to make me feel depressed. Now, I purposely look into them to cheer myself up.

I think I'm becoming somewhat of a narcissist. Honestly, I don't even really care. It just feels so, so good.

The only reason that it bugs me is that I know that at 17, I won't have these looks for much longer. And then I won't have these amazing feelings anymore.

When I was overweight, I was so afraid that I would get old, and never know what it felt like to be beautiful. And now that I'm beautiful, I'm afraid of getting old, period.

Honestly, I know it sounds shallow, but it terrifies me.

And that's my confession.

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  • Yes, you could be totally doable all the way into your 40s.

  • Relax, you still have years of beauty to go and if you take care of yourself you can ride that train till the rails fall off. Congrats on the weight loss.

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