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Narcissist
I'm 17. Until recently, I was slightly overweight. Occasionally I would get told I was pretty, but I never felt it. I always felt fat. And consequently, unattractive, and gross.
Then I lost about 30 lbs. In fact, I'm still losing weight. And I look...a lot different.
I'm getting compliments all the time. And a lot of male attention. Much more than I'm used to. I'm fitting into clothes that look amazing on me.
For the first time in a long time, I feel beautiful and **.
Looking into mirrors used to make me feel depressed. Now, I purposely look into them to cheer myself up.
I think I'm becoming somewhat of a narcissist. Honestly, I don't even really care. It just feels so, so good.
The only reason that it bugs me is that I know that at 17, I won't have these looks for much longer. And then I won't have these amazing feelings anymore.
When I was overweight, I was so afraid that I would get old, and never know what it felt like to be beautiful. And now that I'm beautiful, I'm afraid of getting old, period.
Honestly, I know it sounds shallow, but it terrifies me.
And that's my confession.
Yes, you could be totally doable all the way into your 40s.
Relax, you still have years of beauty to go and if you take care of yourself you can ride that train till the rails fall off. Congrats on the weight loss.