I'm 17. Until recently, I was slightly overweight. Occasionally I would get told I was pretty, but I never felt it. I always felt fat. And consequently, unattractive, and gross.
Then I lost about 30 lbs. In fact, I'm still losing weight. And I look...a lot different.
I'm getting compliments all the time. And a lot of male attention. Much more than I'm used to. I'm fitting into clothes that look amazing on me.
For the first time in a long time, I feel beautiful and sexy.
Looking into mirrors used to make me feel depressed. Now, I purposely look into them to cheer myself up.
I think I'm becoming somewhat of a narcissist. Honestly, I don't even really care. It just feels so, so good.
The only reason that it bugs me is that I know that at 17, I won't have these looks for much longer. And then I won't have these amazing feelings anymore.
When I was overweight, I was so afraid that I would get old, and never know what it felt like to be beautiful. And now that I'm beautiful, I'm afraid of getting old, period.
Honestly, I know it sounds shallow, but it terrifies me.
And that's my confession.