I'm obsessed with the head of my
I'm obsessed with the head of my department where I work. He's so damn attractive and dry and intelligent (irresistable combination). I see his flaws: dismissive sometimes, too self-possessed, a tendency towards arrogance... but I see too that these traits are about self preservation so he doesn't reveal too much about himself.
I MUST sleep with this man.... Otherwise I can't concentrate or think about anything else.
I MUST NOT sleep with this man. Because it would lead to tears (mine).
He's fucken married, and married men *never* leave their wives, from what I can gather. Nothing's going to happen, but I want - WANT - want it to. There's now a palpable sexual tension and I worry that others can pick up on it. We're so obviously cut from the same cloth, psychologically/socially. I fantasise the whole time about seducing him. It would be so hot we'd explode....
Oh my, let's hope this preoccupation blows over pretty quickly. It's hard to deal with when you want someone this much. And wanting (and getting) purely in physical sense wouldn't be enough.