I still don't forgive my Mother for abusing me as a child, but can't bring myself to complain because I don't want it to ruin the relationship we have now. Yet I also resent her for being too emotionally weak to handle the situations she gets herself into. Such as going on shopping sprees only to complain later about not being able to afford her bills. I'm sick of always being the one to listen to her problems and not say any of my own. I'm sick of her being to stupid to see how her mistakes can damage the lives of others.
But most of all, I'm sick of always feeling alone.