Can't Trust Him...

I can't trust my boyfriend. Sometimes just looking at him for long periods of time disgusts me and I really don't know why. Now don't get me wrong I love him with all my heart, it's just that I've been cheated on before and I think that has shattered any trust for a man in my life. He hasn't cheated on me (that I know of) and he denies that he ever will (which I think is total bullshit) and that I'm the love of his life (I kinda doubt this too). It just makes me hate him out of the blue sometimes. And him being attractive and having female friends doesn't make it any better. Sometimes I just think it's best to be alone forever and if I didn't have such a high s** drive I wouldn't even have anything to do with men in the first place. It's to the point where I think about what my ex did to me and I just don't want him to touch me. Should I be alone and just used men as s** toys? It sounds like a plan but I really do love him...he took my virginity. This is why I hate relationships....they're so complicated. I wish I never fell in love with him. I hate men....and love. Why did I have to go on that first date with him? why'd I have to fall in love? Why couldn't i just get a d**** and live my life happily alone were I won't have to deal with all this bullshit betrayal. Good thing I learned early that men can't be faithful to anything. That way if he does cheat I won't be too surprised....men really disgust me sometimes.

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  • Thats pretty f***** up that you are keeping your relationship limited because of your past relationships. What did you new boyfriend do to deserve the consequences of what your last boyfriend did? If that was the case, then why did you even start dating this guy? I mean turning him down in the beginning instead of dating him only to punish him for something others did and eventually breaking up would have at least been much easier to deal with. What if this dude really hasnt cheated on you and what if he seriously really wont ever cheat on you? What if you actually are the love of his life and your holding your relationship back from its potenial because of something your ex did? All the doubt and negativity in the way you view your relationship will definitely be the cause to the end of your relationship. If you dont trust him...why give him your virginity?

  • yeah what she said

  • you're gay. Cheaters mgo to H***.

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