I'm just way to depressed this summer
I'm just way to depressed this summer, everything from the last 9 montth or so has all fallen on my shoulders everythin that I laughed out or blacked out of my life has come tumbling down on me . I feel stuck and ashamed and worried and scared. All I can do is party it away so that I dont allow my brain to think to much. I dont trust myself alone and sober, when I am sober I make sure I always have a book to read. I cant live my life like this anymore, I hope things will change when I go back to collage in the fall but I dont know if it will.