I need to tell my boyfriend..

When my boyfriend was 4-7yrs old he had been sexually abused by (at the time)a teenage male cousin of his. He would make him watch gay p*** and look at pics... and the story goes on.... When he told me about this he cried a river. I am the the only person besides he and his ex-abuser who knows about this. The cousin is in jail now for kiddy p***.. go figure..
what i've been urging to tell my boyfriend is that i too was abused, sort of, by my older brother. We shared a room together when i was really young like, 2-5 years old. he used to tell me to touch his p**** or to "get on top of him" My brother then was like.. 11-13 yrs old. I wonder if he fully understood what he was doing.. when i think about the abuse randomly while my bf and i are doing foreplay or something i get really turned off and sick to my stomach. Id ont want my bf to think that he is turning me off. Should i tell my boyfriend and let him know that he is not alone? we've been together for years now and i feel as if nothing should be hidden, though my eperience was not as graphic, or horrific, would it make him feel better about his situation? or a least feel like he can relate to me on this issue.
Btw, i am now 18 and my bf is 19.

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  • How I should tell him is the real question..

  • I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse as well. I told my husband years ago and now when I have a flashback especially during foreplay or s**, he completely understands. You should tell him. It will help him and it will help you.

  • Tell him the truth and move on to enjoy forplay with him!

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