Dear D.-

We have only gone out twice. I'm a very logical person, and I know it's way too soon to be thinking about anything more serious than where we will grab some drinks if we see each other again. But I can't help it. Something weird is happening here. I find myself fantasizing about some mythical future Christmas, gathered around the tree with your family as you introduce me to to everyone. Or imagining us on a weekend getaway to some destination that doesn't matter half as much as the fact that we are there together.

This isn't me. I'm in my mid 20s, and I have never felt like this before. I'm an independent woman; I keep my emotions in check. I have always preferred my encounters to come without strings attached. Relationships seemed too restrictive, too demanding. But for the first time in my life, I think I get it. Laying in bed with you, it just felt right to interlace my fingers with yours. I finally understand the appeal of cuddling. Of staying the whole night through and waking up next to someone.

Am I becoming a believer? A convert in the land of love? I don't know how to handle this new set of feelings, and it scares the s*** out of me. I can't tell anyone, least of all you. But I think I might be falling for you. Guess all that remains to be done is to sit back and see what unfolds.

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  • When I was in my mid 20's I was the same way, had no interest in settling, loved the freedom of casual relationships...then I met the woman who is now my wife. Go with it, otherwise you'll look back and think "what if?" Don't think, just let it take form, you'll be so much happier for it years down the road. Trust, I know I am!

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