I shouldn't love this man...

He forced me to give him head..
I literally choked.. And passed out because I couldn't breathe.
He says I'm his best friend...
We sleep together.
Because he knows I will never say no.
Even when I want to.
So I just cry, or black out.
He doesn't notice.
I love him.
because of how well he knows me...
No one has ever taken the time to even begin to know me.
I love him...
And he doesn't love me.
Now it isn't even like were friends..
I'm just the annoying girl...
Waiting ever so patiently for him to love me..
Like I love him...
I cry every night...
How could I love some one who has damaged me,
Physically.. Emotionally... Mentally..
I feel dead.
Some days I want to be.
Yet I put on a smile..
And pretend to be that friend.

All for the one night he actually holds me after he f**** me.
No one knows...
I may never love you, hold you, kiss you, or even know you.. And you hold my deepest secret...

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  • WAKE UP AND STOP BEING A STUPID COW!!HE'S AN A****** CANT U FREAKING SEE THAT ??

  • You need professional help..please respect yourself enough to contact someone you could talk to..this relationship will destroy you eventually

  • Classic abuse. You need the self-respect to get out of that.

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