What should I do?
Everyone says we like eachother because we're always talking, we're always together, because we're bestfriends.
Truth is, he saved me. He's the only one who knows I still cut, he's the only one I trust. He makes me smile, he makes me happy. We bully eachother for fun, he knows I don't mean anything what I say and even though he knows I know he doesn't mean what he says, he always apologises for what he said and tells me that I'm not. He knows me better than anybody and I've only known him for a year. He never asks questions, never asks to see my scars, my cuts. Because he already sees my pain. He stays up texting me if I need him. He sticks up for me. He tells people that I'm his bestfriend, a girl. He's like my brother even though he's a completely different size, race, gender. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't be here. He keeps me going through the bad times.
One of my closest friends and his best friend told me that he liked me. I haven't told my bestfriend that he told me this. I don't want to make anything awkward. My friend has been known to twist things sometimes. But I've got this strange feeling that he was telling the truth. Its made me think a lot about our friendship. I love our conversations, I love when he texts me. I love seeing him.
I don't want to like him.
But I think I do.