This is going to hurt

I know you don't understand and you probably won't. I'm afraid to tell you because I know you are going to be very upset. It is going to rip you apart inside and I'm really sorry for that. I just want to be single for a while.
It's not you, your a fantastic person. Your so sweet to me and I really appreciate that. I'm just not ready to settle for the rest of my life. I'm 19 and I deserve to live. I don't want to end up like my parents with a divorce. That's my biggest fear.
It's not you, it's more or less me and I feel terrible that I'm going to break your heart.
I'm in my prime years and I want to be able to live them. I don't ever want to look back and wish I could have done things different. So, I'm sorry for what I'm going to do.
I feel like I can't even kiss you the same anymore. You kind of scared me off with that promise ring when we were 17. It's been in my mind since then.
I just want to flirt with other guys and not have to worry about what I say. I don't want to sound like a w****, because I'm not. I'm probably the opposite. But it also doesn't make me a bad person. I am simply human.
I also might be attrached to someone else but I'm not going to tell you that because you don't need to know. It will hurt you to much and I'm to kind to do that to you. Because it's someone you know, and you know we have become very close. I know you can tell that we are attachted to each other. But he's not the reason for this. It's all for me.
It's going to hurt. It's going to hurt you but It's really going to hurt me. I don't want to hurt you and maybe someday things will roll our way again. You don't have any other friends besides me and i think this will help bring them back into your life.
But right now, your making it very difficult for me to even go out with my best friend. I want one hour tomorrow night and you have to go. I really hope you change your mind and do this one thing for me. If you do it on your own, then, I may not leave you. If you can understand that I have needs and wants and I will get them, then maybe we can make this work. If not, I'm sorry but the line is being drawn.
I'm sorry for hurting you, but it's the best thing for you and me.

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