I am an eighteen year old female student in England. I have been in a relationship for two years today, I am studying a subject I am fascinated by at a university I love.
I also have undiagnosed depression.
I cannot go to a doctor to get help because it would have implications for going to university, I am making myself physically sick because I'm unhappy and I don't have anyone to talk to about it.
My boyfriend treats me like an object and doesn't understand or take on board anything I say, he talks to me like a dog and I know that he is part of what is making me so unhappy.
But if he doesn't understand, how can I break up with him?
I need someone to talk to and there isn't anyone.
I should have everything going for me, but I'm considering how best to kill myself.