I was drunk,
I'm a girl in a long distance relationship with a boy. My boyfriend and I got into a fight, and so I drank with my friends. While I was completely wasted, some girl at the party and I went to find a bed to sleep in (yes actually sleep). I walked into my friend A's room and asked if I could lay in his bed to sleep. He said yes. While I was there he put his hands on me, and took his shirt off. I told him no, it wasn't going to be like that and he put his shirt back on. The girl I was with walked in and saw A put his shirt back on. She walked over and kissed me. I stopped them both when I realized what was going on. And then they started to make out and it took me a while to leave the room.
Later on while I was still very intoxicated, the same girl kissed me again and while I let that happen, another "friend" pulled off my pants. I didn't feel him do that but he then tried to penetrate me, and I felt that.
I screamed and ran away when I felt him.
My boyfriend said I cheated, and I agree. But I feel like I was more taken advantage of, and I don't know what to do because he absolutely hates me. I know it was my fault for drinking, but I don't think he should totally blame me for what happened afterwards.
I don't know what to do. This has happened before and last time I let my emotions get the best of me, so I haven't been as emotional about it, and it's making him think I wanted this to happen.
I didn't want this to happen, and since it has I haven't been able to eat or sleep properly.
I don't know what to do. My relationship is failing and I'm scared.