I secretly don't trust white people.
You would think that in the city that I live in, that I'd me more fair minded.
I secretly do not trust white people.
Growing up I used to be open minded, but the older I got, I started discovering how evil white people can be behind closed doors. As a non white person, it hurts to hear white people call you "n***** b****", making fried chicken jokes and saying really evil, hurtful things online, and in person act friendly.
I don't have too many white friends in real life, and I'm okay with that.
I recently got accepted into a college that is roughly 89% white. I am regretting getting in. It was hard and my family wants me to go. I feel as though I'm not going to make any friends and I feel physically sick and plan on sticking to my grades and work and forget about being social.
I can't sit and smile in the faces of white people who I know talk badly about people of my race when we're not around. I'm so upset and angry that this is how life is but I've faced the reality.