Sad Little Girl
I really just needed to tell someone this cause I am really confused I don't know what the h*** is wrong with me, I am 14 and when I was younger my oldest brother had s** with me I didn't even know what was going on and it happened more than once actually many times. I don't really remember when it started but it was when I was pretty little. He is currently 21 and half the time I feel like it never even happened and I just imagined it but I know that's not true I hate him but I can't tell anyone why and I think I liked it and if I tell anyone I'm afraid of what will happen and maybe it was my fault. I just feel like a s*** and I lost my virginity when I was too young to even know what it was. I really don't know what to do every time I see him I feel like I am lying to everyone and it freaks me out.