I feel super bad =/

Okay so I had a boyfriend of two years and we started distancing from each other, and stopped having s** pretty much altogether. I met a guy, who I was insanely attracted to and who was equally as attracted to me. We hung out once and he seemed really cool, fun to talk to. One night I got drunk and sent him a text telling him I was naked and h****. He started telling me how he'd go wild on me and eat my p**** like no one ever has. It got out of control and he ended up coming over and we had s**. I told him I didn't have a boyfriend because I liked him and wanted him to like me. I didn't ever imagine it'd turn into something serious at first. We kept having s**, and hanging out on a daily basis for about a two weeks and then my boyfriend broke up with me. He didn't find out I was cheating, but he just thought we weren't close anymore, and we weren't. I kept messing out with the other guy and he eventually told me one night that he was in love with me. I started falling for him, too and we ended up together. We've been together for a long time now, and we're engaged to be married. I feel horrible for not being honest with him in the beginning about having a boyfriend. Even though we weren't together at the time, we are now. I also feel horrible for cheating on my ex because even though we distanced from each other he was still good to me, and we're still friends. I couldn't admit what I'd done to either of them, and I'd never done anything like that before =/ I know for a fact if I told my fiance now that I had a boyfriend when I was having s** with him that he'd flip out. Things are so good between us and I don't want to ruin it. Everyone makes mistakes, and I try to tell myself what he doesn't know won't hurt him and at this point I'd do anything for him. I love him so much. Should I feel completely horrible? =/

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  • Oh good LORD woman..... quite making grief for yourself. You didn't do anything wrong with this guy and were all but done except for the formality with the other j***.

    This is just too much teenage drama for a woman that is going to be a wife and probably a mother in very short order!

  • lol you're probably right... I'd never done anything like that before, though and having my now fiance ask me to marry him was overwhelming and made me think so far into everything I've done and if I needed to come clean about anything.

  • If he's that in love with you, it shouldn't affect your relationship. You should trust him enough to tell him, in my opinion. And even if he does flip out, you should love each other enough to get past it.

  • The past is past. Forgive yourself. You've got a good thing going now and you are being faithful to your fiancee.

    You aren't obligated to spill every single thing from your past to anyone. But it's nice that you have such a deep conscience.

  • Thank you... this comment made me feel a lot better. I was expecting to come back to a load of negative feedback and I was pleasantly surprised.

  • i was gonna say the same thing.

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